Burned Out

I forgot to ever mention the beautiful baby shower my sister threw for DD and myself, and all of the loverly pressies I received. It's nice to be thought of and pampered. I believe it slipped my mind because of the turmoil our life has been in lately.

I realized tonight that the overwhelming feelings I've been dealing with are those of being burnt out. Being the go to gal in our nuclear family. Trying to support DH and his sis through their grief, and the dissolution of DSil's marriage. And dealing with our financial worries. Oh, and did I mention one child likes to fall asleep at about 2am and the other likes to get up for the day at 6am?????

Ya, a little sleep would go a real long way right about now! Then the whole world would look a little brighter, and easier to deal with. Coffee isn't cutting it, just giving me a stomach ache. Baby is sooooo not on a schedule, she refuses still. Her big bro was a total schedule baby, so it's really throwing me for a loop! She has no rhyme or reason to when she eats or sleeps. Though most nights she has a nap from about 10:30 to 11:30 and then is awake until about 1:30 or so. That's her nightly routine. I guess she figures I can sleep when I'm dead. I may be soon if this keeps up, LOL.

And in other news, DH REALLY wants to move. I don't blame him. He's taking upwards of 2 hrs to get home from work these days, and he's just BURNT. He leaves at about 5 and gets home about 5:30, and he usually only works an 8 hr day! It's nuts, and he wants to cut down the commute so he can get more sleep and spend more time with the kids. He wants to sell and rent closer to his work. He figures we can get ourselves COMPLETELY out of debt, and walk away with about 14000, and even renting, put at least 500 away in the bank every month. In addition, he's talking about us buying a rental property, so that we're still building equity. See, we can't afford anything close to where he works that we could fit in, so there's no way we could purchase anything close - that's why we live where we do. But we certainly could afford a 1 or 2 bedroom condo that we could rent out. I actually think it could work, except that I hate white walls, and in most rentals you're not allowed to paint. I dearly love my "drumbeat" (deep red/marroon) bedroom walls.

That, and we'd have to leave behind the Winnie the Pooh mural in DS's (soon to be DS/DD's) bedroom. Though DH did offer to rip the drywall down to take it with us. Cute dear. Sadly, DS told me today that it was time to change his room, and take the animals off the wall. He said "mommy the walls need to be blue". Broke my heart it did. It took me a full week to paint that mural when I was pregnant. I finished two days before he was born. I guess he's growing up now. And he really doesn't have an appreciation for who Winnie the Pooh is. Not really. I'll have to figure out how to get some pics of it on here.